Listen to Aphex Twin,Squarepusher,Venetian Snares,Autechre,Xanopticon.

These guys are the best beatmake/programmers in the world,listen to them,try to reproduce some of their beats pattern.

If you can make a breakcore/idm/dnb beat you can make any kind of beat.

Are people actually y using the term "idm"? What is that supposed to cover?

I got to say that complex beats as Aphex Twin´s are not a good place to start when learning to make music.  His drums are seldom the driving force in his tracks, and the beats are usually complementing the theme rather than being it.

You´ve posted in the wrong section...

Failure is when I trust the track, but in reality it doesn't speak to anybody. When I like the track, but not many other people do. When it's just empty despite all the effort.

Silly as it may be, You need to get your music out to more people...  Have you released any music commercially? You should try.  If you use your friends´reactions to tell you if what you make is good or not, you will almost always be disappointed unless you make "lowest common denominator" stuff.  None of my friends really like the stuff I make, but on spotify there´s a lot  it seems.  it´s just a matter of getting it out there.

I listened to you SC, and I think you have your own expression, and a lot of tracks that you should be proud of.

I make all the elements, and then take weeks putting it all together even though it´s all cut´n´paste from thereon out...  I guess I just love making parts.

And now we see what happens to suggestions that the mods don´t approve of:  They are just left here to die, with no decision ever being made.

Good to know.

Well we got a spammer...

I agree with the issues in putting discussions to rest.  When a suggestion does not catch on, it seems like the mods just pretend that it never existed, hoping that it will go away.  When people are never told no, they tend to nag, nag, nag until they get an answer.  A forum population needs some discipline, and if the makers don´t feel like doing the moderation, then they should ask someone else to do the job(I´m not volunteering).

I don't get the whole "I need to feel extreme emotions to write music" thing.

I do, but I totally agree with you on the "put in work" part.  I use these periods to make different kinds of music.  I put more emotions into tracks I make when have "the feels", and make lighter stuff when I don´t have them.

If you manage to get tired of music altogether, like it seems like that is where the OP is, then please don´t stop searching!  I got so sick of music that I didn´t listen to anything for almost 3 years. I picked news stations when I was driving.  And when I really started exploring again I got really pissed at myself for all the stuff I missed.

TL:DR use different emotions for different types of music. Never say die.