Thank you guys so much for the feedback

I think some of you may have picked up a vibe that I don't really enjoy music making and that I'm just sort of doing it or instant fame, but that isn't the case. I love making music, I was just scared I wasn't really getting anywhere, and also scared that it was awful..
My favorite producer is Haywyre (Endlessly and Insight) and I often sit down to make a track I want to release and get this annoyed feeling like "I can't actually do that" and it puts me off a little. I tend to make a beat, put in some chords, pick a synth and just improvise for hours. Then eventually I stop doing that and start making a song. TBH I wouldn't mind just releasing improvs XD.
I think the key lies in patience. A lot of you told me it takes time, and @daimon I agree with what you said about how each individual artist broke the ice. But I don't think they broke the ice BECAUSE of myspace or youtube or reddit etc, I think they broke the ice because they had something people want to hear. So I guess that's where I need to go. I need to keep making music until I can make something worthy of the time spent listening to it.
@ninthparallel, thanks for the motivation man! I enjoyed your Porter Robinson remix a lot. You spoke about having an emotional connection to your music and I agree that's essential to giving your track meaning beyond something that was made for the purpose of being made. I'm an ambitious person and I fight to achieve my goals, and if that goal requires involvement and practice, I'll get involved and I'll practice.
Thank you to everyone, I have more direction now

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- Vera