Cause bandmates were too unreliable
That's why I initially started, that and I fell in love with Stigma by Noisia and just had to get into it. But I fell out of it for a while. I don't think why we started is the question. I think what needs to be asked is why we're still doing it, because at the end of the day where we are now means so much more than where we were then.
I got super into it again right around Porter's Worlds release. I had been doing it on and off from the get go, but Worlds inspired me. We have the ability to create something beautiful. To lift others up out of their murky depths, even if it's only for a moment. But that's such a powerful thing, because people will want to find it again, or create it again for themselves. I want to do that. I want to pour my heart out and inspire others to do the same. Music has kept me alive all my life, and through it all I realized that I could be a beacon of light in the hearts and minds of others, as others have been for me. It may sound pretentious, but it's an idea I've fallen in love with.
P.S. Sorry like 90% of my posts in this forum turn into emotional rants.