I second what above commenter said. I have 3 people who I go to with ALLL my stuff. I trust them to give me constructive but hard feedback.
So, what made you want to produce? Was it the concept of making music? Was it the insane sounds?
Whatever it was, focus on doing that first.
For me I fell in LOOOVEEEE with sound design. So I spent all my early time learning vsts and making myself a personal handmade sound bank. But if that's not your thing, start off with some presets/tutorials on sound design and start learning about mastering and sidechaining. I can't stress how important those things are. Another this is to listen to artists who you really love/inspire you and figure out the little things they do in their music that makes you like them. After that start paying attention to their composition of their songs. How you put a song together seems so simple, but that's where most people go completely wrong. Make sure it doesn't get too boring sound wise or repetition wise. Keep things interesting and changing, but still familiar.
Other than that my man it's just a lot of practice and learning. If you love it it's work that you love. You gotta find what makes you love it and stick to that.
