Ok, guys, sorry If I turn the vibe down a bit, but ... I kinda can't hold it.
I think I might not be the only one here who felt in love with this hobby some years ago. It's awesome hobby, probably coolest there can be, but sometimes it has it's dark sides. (Vader jokes in 3...2..1...

) What I mean by that is, eventhough it's first and foremost about the music, about the emotions, you can't stop the world around you. Trust me, I've tried.
First two or three years it's so cool. You work on your new hobby. BTTF shit. You're life's completely unwritten. Who the hell knows what it might lead to? So liberating from the real world ... and cool at the same time.
The next three years, you start to doubt, if you just didn't find a right source of information to learn from, or if you're just useless. Especially as younger guys then you start to appear with songs you'd kill for to be able to make. (That one really hurts at the time.) ...the hobby's still really cool. But the lifes starts to throw some reality checks in your way. Colledge, uni, life plans, money... Everything somehow connects back to the hobby. You need time for it, place for it, some gear for it. Also your friends invest their life in different hobbies, doing well. But damn. That piano, that synth, it always works right? It gets you out of everything.
But then another two years pass and ... your friends still support you, but not becouse your hobby is cool anymore. It's becouse it's just you now. That unwritten life starts to define itself pretty clearly. You're that guy, who tries to produce for years, who's never satisfied with himself. That's just it. And what's worst, sometimes even that piano and synths don't cure it anymore. Believing in your own stuff becomes hard, becouse you know you're gonna listen to it few years later and cringe. You start to procrastinate from the hobby you've put a big chunk of your life into. ...and that sucks, becouse you know it can make you happy. It just isn't that frequent anymore...
If anybody's been through something like this ... what got you out of it? Becouse I feel like i need to find something ASAP.
...also, for the newbies: That saying: Keep your feet on the ground and eyes in the skies. Don't forget about the feet part. It might kinda hurt in the future.